As part of my attempt to develop better, more positive, productive habits, I've decided to start posting a nightly blog before I go to sleep that will recap my day and summarize any thoughts I had throughout the course of it. That could include anything that may be interesting or worth getting off of my mind. I won't be promoting it on social media or even telling anyone that I'm doing it (for now). There are numerous reasons why I have made the decision to try this out. I suppose since this is my blog and I'm just rambling here, I'll list a few of the reasons.
To replace my old nightly routine. As I have been getting my habits in order over the past couple of months, I've found the hardest time to remain committed to a productive and positive lifestyle is right before bed. After a long day of frying my brain to a crisp and pushing myself to my limits, my animal brain just wants to open up a bag of white cheddar popcorn and go down a wasteful Youtube rabbit hole. Instead, I am using this commitment of a nightly blog to trigger a new routine which involves healthier pre-sleep nutrition, planning my next day, and continuing to create. Perhaps in a future blog, I will break down the whole routine.
To give myself some credit. This one is a little more personal. I have always dealt with deep imposter syndrome. Along with that comes the lack of ability to admit that I was actually productive throughout the course of my day or that anything that I'm doing is interesting, meaningful, or worthwhile at all. Recapping my day is going to be, in part, a way of me allowing myself to feel good about what I accomplished on any given day and hopefully continue chipping away at the negative self-talk that is so common during the day.
To practice confidently putting thoughts and opinions out into the public sphere. Another element of my life that I'm practicing is the confident communication of my views without worrying about the consequences of doing so. I'm generally frustrated with my lack of output into the world. My hope is that starting small (nightly blog) will set into motion the steps to get comfortable with putting out riskier and more personal content (i.e, music).
To improve my writing skills. This one is a little more obvious. The more I write, the better I will get at it. Practice.
To give a look inside the life of a working musician for those who are interested. Perhaps something that I'll say in these posts will give some insight to an aspiring musician. Or for that matter anyone who is interested in the day-to-day grind of the freelancer's lifestyle.
I gave myself a 15 minute limit on writing these posts. So I suppose that will count for tonight's post. Despite the fact that I didn't actually go through any part of my day.